Afraid (Rant In Desc, Be Aware)

I have social anxiety, I know that word is overused now. I don't want to listen to people who don't have it, and just want praise.They don't deserve to throw around this word. They don't deserve to self diagnose themselves.They don't deserve to be praised and loved for saying they have an illness they do not. Yell at me whatever, but people don't deserve the right to use an illness for praise -like depression and anxiety- . Every time I say "I have depression." or "I have social anxiety" nearly no one actually believes me. When you are upset that your mother didn't get you the rose gold iPhone, (Throwing shade, i'm sorry) you cannot say you have depression. You just make the people who do have it look like they're fools. They look like they're fakers. Everyone is fake now.

Besides my little rant, this image is my character (Whom is based on me) which shows my state of mind when it comes to friends. The "Face so sunny, ain't that funny, I love you honey" part represents what my 'friends and love ones' are saying to me. The words in the back "All my friends always lie to me.. I know they're thinking, you're too mean I don't like you, f*** you anyway. You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs. It hurts but I won't fight you, you suck anyway, you make me wanna die, right when I.." Is what I know they're thinking about me. I got most of the words from "Afraid" by the neighborhood, besides "I love you honey" part. That phrase fit me more I guess. Bleh, sorry guys.
~BlackCat