I've been through a lot. Not as much as you would expect, but a lot. My parents had high expectations for me. They wanted me to be perfect in everything I did. They said they didn't care about grades, but they yelled at me every time I got below 80. They said that everyone has flaws and no ones perfect...
This made me seek perfection in everything and end up having anxiety. I sought perfection from friends. I lost my best friend because of I rude I was to them. It took them a while to forgive me. We didn't talk for months. We went to the same event every week, but I avoided them because I was scared I'd do something wrong again.
I'm finally okay with talking to them, but I'm definitely not as close with them as I was before. I became close with other people during this period. I gained a new best friend and a crush. I ended up confessing to them. They didn't even say if they felt the same or not. They just joked around. I felt extremely anxious and stupid. I left to go calm down...But it just got worse. I had an anxiety attack in the bathroom.
I told my best friend about it later. They helped me calm down and I explained what happened. I had a lot of anxiety attacks after that. My anxiety back then was very minor, it spiked a lot after the confession. They helped me through a lot of stuff and I told some other friends about them. They all wanted to help me through my problems. They were the most amazing people I had ever met...
...And I had to ruin it.
This made me seek perfection in everything and end up having anxiety. I sought perfection from friends. I lost my best friend because of I rude I was to them. It took them a while to forgive me. We didn't talk for months. We went to the same event every week, but I avoided them because I was scared I'd do something wrong again.
I'm finally okay with talking to them, but I'm definitely not as close with them as I was before. I became close with other people during this period. I gained a new best friend and a crush. I ended up confessing to them. They didn't even say if they felt the same or not. They just joked around. I felt extremely anxious and stupid. I left to go calm down...But it just got worse. I had an anxiety attack in the bathroom.
I told my best friend about it later. They helped me calm down and I explained what happened. I had a lot of anxiety attacks after that. My anxiety back then was very minor, it spiked a lot after the confession. They helped me through a lot of stuff and I told some other friends about them. They all wanted to help me through my problems. They were the most amazing people I had ever met...
...And I had to ruin it.