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Pokecharms — The Site That Changed It All

by NightRaven

NightRaven Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
It's about time I did this! ^^
This is, of course, how I joined this site, how my time was, etc.
I'll mention quite a few people, I'm sure!
Here it is, no? About time?
Well, here you go!
I found Pokecharms because of one of my closest friends in the short history of allies I've had (if not the closest!), @Twilight Nova.
Greatest.
Friend.
Ever.
As well as all of you out there!
She's a wonderful, wonderful friend who's understanding and overall amazing! I will never be able to thank her enough.
Anyways, she told me about this site and I joined, out of fear. I was nervous, awkward, and really, really shy. I only spoke to her, not daring to speak to others.
I swore I'd only write, not daring to show my terrible artwork here. Ironically, that all changed, but I'll get there later.
I created my first forum roleplay, a Warriors roleplay. It didn't get to start, though. I broke a rule or two with it, and it was caught by moderators/administrators, luckily.
Then, from my failing memory, I recall being invited to a Warriors roleplay by @_Umbreon_ , another awesome friend . I apologize if I'm incorrect, but I did join.
I believe that's also where I met @EspeonTheBest , yet another amazing friend.
Soon enough, I was making a few friends, coming across a lot: @Eeveechu151 , @Lucky Ace , @Andrewski2000 , @Shadewing , @MegaAbsol , and a lot of others. (Not all at once, nor by the same roleplay, but still found them, nonetheless!)
I'm glad to have come here because of a friend. Without this place, I'd be alone all the time, hidden in the shadows of the eternal world of the internet.
I started sharing my horrid art, which did increase in skill. I had ambition, of course, to draw realistically, but I never got it right. I never appreciated my art or writing, everything I promised would come didn't see the light of day...
Then, depression hit.
And it hit hard. No less had the damage come when Midas died. I had no inspiration, no activity, nothing but broken promises and failures upon failures. I tried to find ways to get rid of this nightmare, but it clung on and on, days at a time, weeks...
No rest.
No activity.
Nothing.
Pure, endless, cold silence followed very often. I reminded myself, day upon wretched day, that I had to do this or that, but I always told myself, "No...not today...maybe tomorrow..."
I was falling apart, apologizing for things that never happened, apologizing for letting you all down.
But then, someone helped me through. Several did, actually: @Andrewski2000 , @Estra , @Twilight Nova , etc.
Because of them, I had a little bit more inspiriation. I attempted to draw and write, leaving several unfinished projects in the mist.
Day by day, things seemed to get better by small pieces because of these wonderful people.
Soon enough, I was almost free from the cold chains, ready to run back to the light calling my name. For a while had I been locked away, and for a while had I remained in these chains, but I soon broke free, running off without injury...yet I was close.
Luckily, I had a major fear of pain, and still do.
I remained inactive for a while, but things were brighter.
I promised myself to look up for a change, to use more colors than just those you'd find in grayscale. Soon, I was back.
I still mourn for Midas, and so does the rest of my family, but we'll recover.
Our other dogs were always lying down in silence, never doing much.
Then, we got him.

The demon puppy.
The adorable demon puppy.
The short, adorable, endlessly-barking demon puppy.
We named him Hero for he seemed to be one for helping our others through.
A short little bundle of joy.
A corgi.
He still has his loud, high-pitched bark that makes my ears ring, but I love him.

Pokecharms has changed my life forever. If not for this site, I'd still be lost.
I'd still be depressed.
I'd still be lonely.

Because of my friends, I now show my somewhat more insane side.
The "good" kind of insane, if that clears it up.

I've been betrayed by many in reality and never knew who to trust, but now...
now I have people who I can trust.

Because of you, I have 1,600+ likes.
Because of you, I have friends.
Because of you, I'm not curled up in a tight knot of sorrow, self-hatred, and loss.
Because of you, I'm still here.

And I will never be able to thank you enough for this wonderful adventure that still continues on...
You guys aren't just a number! You're all amazing people to help me in more ways than you can imagine!

Thank you all for everything you've given me...
I don't deserve it, but you all make me feel like I do...
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  1. NightRaven
    NightRaven
    Jul 13, 2017
    33v33_lover and Andrewski2000 like this.
  2. Andrewski
    Andrewski
    Glad you're back to posting! We missed you!
    Jul 13, 2017
    33v33_lover and Vulpine_Eclipse like this.
  3. NightRaven
    NightRaven
    We were lucky, in all honesty, @parisbuffet ! The couple we adopted him frome screwed us over majorly. We barely managed to get him, but I'm still glad.

    My art isn't that good, but it's getting better! Thank you for the support! ^^
    Jul 12, 2017
  4. parisbuffet
    parisbuffet
    Corgis are hecking adorable and beyond pricey, lucky! I myself haven't seen you around charms that often, but your art is gorgeous! Why was I not following you?

    Hope nothing else comes up to stand in your way from posting here, glad you're busy again. ^_^
    Jul 12, 2017
  5. NightRaven
    NightRaven
    Okay.
    and it's screwed.
    My apologies for the strange glitch that occured!
    Jul 12, 2017
    33v33_lover and Excalibur Queen like this.