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by wintersolstice

wintersolstice please read. tw: mentions of self harm & depression
hello, all!
so it appears that i’ve disappeared without a word once more. for that, i sincerely apologize. i know i’ve done it twice now and it probably isn’t the easiest thing to deal with.
truth be told, i wasnt doing so great.

these past two months or so have been rather rough on my mental state; i’ve spiraled into a depression and at its peak i was self harming. i think i knew it was wrong, but it seemed as if it was the only thing i could control in my life.
it felt like everything i did wasn’t enough, and i was convincing myself that i had nobody who cared for me, as the situation with my family isn’t the greatest. in hindsight, that was an incredibly stupid thing to think.
that being said, i’d like you all to know that im doing significantly better. i’ve been clean (as in i havent cut myself) for two weeks now and my first therapy session is in a bit less than a week. im going to homecoming with friends and i have an optimistic viewpoint on these next few weeks, though i’ll admit that it was a struggle getting to this point. im still rather unhappy with myself, but its something im trying to embrace.

thank you all for providing such a warm, welcoming community that i can come back to. hopefully i’ll be back to posting and being involved soon. :’)
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  1. MarcelGalliard790
    MarcelGalliard790
    There is still a reason to fight this battle.
    Oct 14, 2019
    Cmeriwether and JayBird Joe like this.
  2. Cryronn the Mudkip
    Cryronn the Mudkip
    It's always a slippery slope dealing with things like that. I'm definitely glad that you're getting help. Support for you is all anyone could ask for. Stay optimistic!
    Oct 11, 2019